Category Archives: Spiritual

Dealing with VT Massacre

null I wanted to give you links to several websites that are helping people deal with the Va Tech tragedy. Please feel free to direct people to these sites if they are sad, grieving, or don’t understand why God allows bad things to happen.

One site is this one on the left. Here’s a list of others as well.

Tragedy at Virginia Tech
– A Campus Crusade website with stories and accounts from students and staff involved in the shootings on campus.
The Life – has great articles and people can ask questions or ask for prayer and someone will respond.

Please Pray for Virginia Tech

Some of you have emailed me about the shootings at Virginia Tech, my alma mater. Thanks for sending me links. I’m aware of what’s been going on. I have received an email from the Campus Crusade Director from VT, whom Rob and I are good friends with.

He wrote that there are 2 students involved with Campus Crusade are still missing and one student was killed. I know most of the staff at VT very well. They are all in shock and are the students. Classes have been canceled for Tuesday and the CCC staff will be praying with and counseling students.

Please pray for my good friends and staff at VT. Please pray for the students and campus as well. This makes me very sad despite being on the other side of the world. The I’m conference made time and we took a few minutes to pray for Virginia Tech and the staff.

Speed Trap

I was sitting in church this Easter morning listening to my pastor give his sermon, and he starts talking about getting a speeding ticket on Wednesday on the same road I was on! Huh, he got a ticket on the same day, same road, and same speed trap I got my ticket. I just had to laugh. Not because getting a ticket is funny (way not funny) but because my reactions were the same as his.

I thought for sure the motorcycle cop behind me wasn’t coming after me. But he was. Well, it turns out my pastor was going the same speed I was and he got the big speeding fine. My cop was nicer to me and lowered my speed and it saved me $100. And really I didn’t do anything or ask him to lower my fine. Sorry Mark. But I also got a fine for not have my insurance info with me so I’ll be downtown tomorrow getting it all fixed.

So I did I receive grace or mercy? Or both?

Either way, I’m glad for Jesus, that he died on the cross and rose again so I can have grace and mercy.

13 Hours

The amount of sleep I got last night! Yes, I woke up at 3:30 pm this afternoon. It’s been a long time since I’ve done this. So I’m baffled. I must be fatigued physically or mentally. And since I haven’t been doing much physically, it have to be mental fatigue.

I have a lot on my mind lately; personal stuff that I prefer not to go into here. Let’s just say that I have TONS of stuff going on in my mind that would mentally fatigue me.

I wonder why God gives me so much that I can’t seem to handle. But then I think of what my friend Pam wrote about and remember that God will give me strenght. Now if I would only listen to Him. I need to start listening to God more. Because I just can’t deal with all this stuff on my own.

Friendship – My Thoughts

“Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art… It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival.” –C. S. Lewis

After asking you’re thoughts about this quote, here are mine. I saw this quote at the end of a co-workers email and I copied it because I liked it right away. After reading and re-reading it, however, I agree and disagree with this quote.

I agree that frienships give value to survival, just like art does. Friends make us laugh when we’re down, they listen when we need to vent, they give us grace and truth at just the right times. They come to our side when we are lonely. I can’t imagine a life without friends.

Which leads me to disagree that friendships are unnecessary to survival. Sure, all you really need to physically survive is food and water. But we’re not just physical beings, we have an emotional component as well. Life without friendship is loneliness. Lonely people often become depressed or are already depressed. And a person who’s lonely and doesn’t have any friends may end their life.

I often hear of elderly couples who’ve been married over 65 years. When one spouse passes away, the other passes a few months later. The surviving spouse doesn’t want to be alone.

Remember the movie “Cast Away” with Tom Hanks. He was stranded on the island all alone, and after a couple of years alone he tried to hang himself, unsuccesfully. He was friendless, alone, lonely. He didn’t want to survive anymore.

Now, I’m no theologian (if you are correct me if I’m wrong) but I do know that God created us to be in fellowship with others, to get to know other people. God decided it wasn’t good for Adam to be alone so he created Eve. Adam needed companionship and friendship. Obviously God knew that friendship is necessary to survival.

We’re not meant to be alone. A person won’t survive very long without friends. I believe friendships are absolutely neccessary for survival!

I also disagree that art is unnecessary to survival. But that’s another post for another time.

Another Late Night

I finally conviced Rob to go to bed early tonight at 10 pm and here I am, still up at 11:30 pm. I was exhausted all day long but now I can’t sleep. I’ll try again in a few minutes.

I’ve decided I’m easily addicted. Not to bad stuff like drugs and alcohol. But silly things that can turn into bad things since any addiction is not good. I don’t like to be addicted to anything because it’s just not good. I don’t like taking pills if I don’t have too. I make sure I’m never addicted to caffeine. I drink coffee but that’s because I love the taste. I drink decaf but it’s only a few times a week.

Here are some of my addictions and how I deal with them.

  • watching movies – I can watch movies 24-7, but when I do this it usually means I’m trying to avoid something.
  • watching TV series (I’m currently watching Stargate SG 1 starting with Season 1 to the present) – I’m making myself watch only 2 episodes per day. Although I could easily watch all 4-5 on the DVD.
  • making cookies – this one’s tough because I love to bake and especially bake chocolate chip cookies. This started when I was young. I have to be careful to make them when I want to do something I enjoy as opposed to making them to feed my sorrows.
  • shopping – I think this one’s under control, mainly becuase I don’t want to spend money and I don’t feel like going shopping. And I haven’t been looking at any fashion magazines.
  • reading – If I pick up a book I really love I’ll stay up all night long reading. I’ve been known to stay up until 4 am reading. I really love reading. I’m still working on how to stop reading at a decent time. I can get totally lost in a book.

When I realize these addictions are taking over I know I’m in either in need of God or not trusting God. At least that’s been my experience with my addictions. I use movies, TV and books to enter into other worlds and escape from mine for a little while. I go shopping and make and binge on cookies when I’m worried, anxious and stressed.

I’ve begun to recognized my need for God when I start doing too much of the above in an obsessed manner. It’s hard to stop, but I don’t want the things above to get in the way of my relationship with God. And I know with God all things are possible. So He can help me control my addictions.

Do, Do

I can’t believe what I did during Life Group tonight. Mike was in the middle of leading the discussion on the book we’re reading and he asked us a deep spiritual question. I can’t even remember the question because all I heard was, “what we do do is put God…” and I couldn’t help but start laughing. Why?

Rob and I for years have always giggled when we here people say “do do” in everyday normal sentences. We’re like highschool kids. I know, it’s bad.

So when Mike (did I mention he’s a pastor at our church) said “do do” I looked at Rob, but Rob didn’t seem to notice. So I tapped him on the shoulder and when he looked at me I started to giggle. Everytime Rob looked over at me I started to laugh even harder. The giggling turning into hard silent laughter. And when I laugh like that, it also looks like I’m crying.

Finally I just had to burst out laughing – in the middle of a deeply spiritual conversation! And I had to explain why I was laughing so hard. They all thought I was crying. I had to apologize as well.
I can’t believe what I did.

Life is…

  • hard and fun
  • tiring and energizing
  • good and bad
  • adventurous and boring
  • meaningful yet seem so meaningless sometimes

So many contradictions. So emotional. So confusing at times.

I’d be lost without God. He is my hope, my rock, my salvation.